On friends

Hi there sweet pea,

Mummy got this made-my-day sms from your Aunty Sel on Friday:-

"Friends are a treasure. There are friends that will come and go. Then there are others that can't seem to leave you alone. These are the ones you want to hold onto."

Mummy has been blessed with the best set of friends ever! Never underestimate the importance of your true friends, your friends forever. You will meet many people in your life time. Some will remain acquaintances, some you will get to know a bit better and then there will be those precious few who no matter where you go, what you do, no matter how much time passes or episodes you experience together, will be there with you no matter what - be it in body, mind or spirit. As in many relationships, there will be trying times that will test the strength of you bond but with friends forever, it will pass. And you will know that you will never be alone. Of course there's always God and mummy and even daddy but it's always good to have a Plan D.

mummy
xxx

The best that I can be

Mummy truly wishes she could breastfeed you.

There was some complications in the beginning. I think I introduced the bottle to you too early. This caused a little nipple confusion. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. I don't know. I wish people were more encouraging. I felt like I was starving you. Never really knew if I had enough to give. You were hungry so soon after a feed. You couldn't latch on properly. Of course none of this is your fault. I did not provide you much to latch on to. You seemed so frustrated.

Now there is no supply and no demand (for my breast) neither. You are 100% on formula. It tears at my heart, thinking that I could not do this for you. I could not give you the one thing that only a mother can give. The one special thing that only the two of us can share. My privilege for my baby! I want that bond so much. I want you to need me and I want to be there for you. In that way that only I can. I cry inside when I am reminded that this is something I cna no longer do for you.

Mummy feels like she's lost that chance. I love you beyond words or expression. I love you unconditionally. You bring new meaning to the word love. To loving another. I want you to know that and remember it always.

Hey there Elil....

Oh it's what you do to meeee....
Oh it's what you do to me.
Oh it's what you do to meeee....
Oh it's what you do to me.
What you do to me.

Love,

mummy
xxx

The New Addition

Eli the Elephant. You like Eli's bright red color. You are fascinated with the colorful ball he carries and the purple and yellow hoops he has. Eli has big elephant ears and a long red trunk.

This is the quilt that grandma made. It's beautiful isn't it? Grandma misses you terribly and loves you so so much.

The Weekend

We had a big celebration for you this Saturday. All your tata's/pati's friends were there. Daddy's friends too. Not forgetting cousin Shannon, aunty Otta and uncle Allen. You got so many gifts; too bad you are too tiny to get all excited over them. Don't worry mummy was excited for you. It was a nice evening although you were passed around from one aunty/uncle to another aunty/uncle so many times. I'm sure that must have been tiring. But you were the star of the night so I guess it was expected. You knocked out only at 12.30am. As usual at night mummy will lay you down on your side snuggled in between your two tiny bolsters.

Cool eh?

So cute you looked (eee geram, gigittt!). That night mummy lay down on the rug by your bed. I was didnt want to lie down in my own bed for fear the squeeking noises the mattress makes might wake you up. What a surprise I had minutes later when I got up to check on you. You were sleeping soundly on your belly! You tiarap yourself! Mummy is so proud of you. I am sure it took a lot of energy and effort to turn your little 7 week old self over.

This was taken yesterday - lunch in SS2. Daddy carrying Shannon. Shannon carrying Elil

Why the frown sweetheart?

Everyday...

Everyday...

...you give me more reasons to love you.
...I love you more.
...you teach me more about yourself.
...I want to hug you more, squeeze you harder, kiss you all the time, smell you all over (except the diaper area when you have pooped).

...I sing to you. Talk to you.
...I can't tell you enough that I love you.
...I don't look forward to going back to work.
...I cannot imagine my life without you.

...I thank God for you. Pray for you.

...you grow a little. Your chin just gets a little heavier, the folds on your thighs a little deeper, your chest a little wider, your feet a little longer.

...you try your best to communicate with mummy. Through your wide eyes, or your flapping hands and kicking feet, through the little sounds you let out.

...it gets a little harder to carry the whole 4.2kg of you. I still do. Still love to.

...you don't know the joy you bring me.

...you remind me more and more of an angel.

love

mummy

xxx

Mega Mall

Yesterday was your first trip to Mega Mall. I don't think you enjoyed it too much. We brought you around in your brand spanking new stroller. You don't know how long daddy and I waited to use that thing. 5 whole months! We forgot to bring your quilt and pillow along so you weren't very comfortable. I could tell you were soaking everything in. A whole new environment. The noise, the hustle and bustle of people all around. The strange faces staring at you admiringly, oogling.

This morning you did the funniest thing. You had your usual adorable smile on but at the same time your body started shaking, almost vibrating. It was like you were laughing uncontrollably except in silence but the whole body movement was there. Reminded me a lot of 'tickle-me-elmo. So cute. Mummy wished she had the video camera rolling. Boy I just want to squeeze you and kiss you and never let you go.

A few days ago you said your first word. Well, it wasn't a real word but it was clear and it sounded like you were talking to me. You went, "Ah ah-yee" real loud and clear. Mummy was shocked. Again I wish I had the video camera at hand.

The last two nights have been good. I think you are starting to follow a schedule. The longest time you are awake is early evening, from around 8.30pm - 11.30pm. When you are tired you get a little cranky and insist (cry your lungs out) on having your nennen. You have this habit of falling asleep 2 seconds after the bottle is in your mouth. Once your eyes are shut, mummy has to hold you for at least 20 minutes before putting you down in your cot. You wake up otherwise. Your next wakey-wakey time is usually 3.30am - 4.30am. Usually you are up for an hour. Enough for one feed - nowadays you gulp down close to 5oz (babs!), burpy time and rock-you-to-sleep time. At around 8.00am you start to let out little whiny noises - hints that you want to be carried. Mummy waits for you to cry out a little before picking you up. This is usually at 9.00am. You drink your 4oz and fall asleep right after. Bath time is around 12 noon. You love the water (thank God). When were done dressing you up, you like to roll around in your cot for a bit. Doggy and Roo entertain you. Sometimes you fall asleep all on your own and other times mummy makes you nennen before you shut eye. Its an experience just watching you sleep. The perfect, peaceful little angel.

love

mummy
xxx

Nappy Rash

Blue Frock

Yesterday you had a bit of a nappy rash. Mummy & Aunty Otta noticed it when we gave you a bath. It was entirely mummy's fault. The night before mummy noticed your diaper was full and heavy but mummy didn't change it. You were making pushing noises and I was convinced you would poop so decided to wait before changing you. Unfortunately, you poop-pa-di-dooped only at 9 in the morning. By then it was too late and you were already sore. Poor thing. So after your bath, mummy slathered on a thick layer of nappy rash cream and powdered you all over. This morning your rash is nearly gone, phew! From now on mummy will make sure to change your diaper before it gets too full ok sweetheart.

Mummy was going through your drawers yesterday and realized that you have so many beautiful/adorable/cute little outfits that actually fit you. And if I don't put them on you now you will outgrow them in no time. There is this NEW white pyjama set that mummy got which you have never worn. No chance of fitting it now! So this morning, after your bath I put you in this blue frock (inherited from cousin Shannon) with embroidered flowers on the bib. Unfortunately, we don't have matching panties to go with it so I paired it with Mickey Mouse undies. They don't quite go together. You still look as cute as ever.

More of the angel....

Taken this morning - just had your bath & 3.5oz of milk - life is perfect

In the arms of Aunty Otta - burpy time

Mummy was changing your diaper in this shot - no complaints from you.

You in your new cot - looking snug

The morning of your full moon - grogginess

Aunty Otta

You and Aunty Otta during your full moon. Aunty Otta loves you very very much